I'm so afraid that I'm gonna disappoint myself again. I'm so scared and I have no one to turn to. No one to trust, no one to rely. Everyone is going to judge me. They say they won't, but don't lie babe. Everyone judges. Don't lie to make yourself feel better. I'm so tired of feeling alone, of crying alone. I want to save up enough money and go to a foreign country and never return. You have no idea how much I want to restart my life.