Saturday, March 19, 2011

My secret revealed.

I was never the pretty girl.
Grew up as an ugly duckling and will always be one.
Thought I was always an extrovert but slowly becoming an introvert.
Always thought when in a room filled with strangers I would be the first one to know everybody.
But I slowly feel that i'm wrong.
Surrounded with people I feel awkward.
I don't know what to talk about.
I keep quiet.
Keep to myself.

Maybe I'm losing myself or maybe I just want to be alone.

Existential loneliness.
The feeling of being all alone even surrounded with people you love.

I suddenly feel like i don't even know myself.

I'm smiling. Yes I am. Don't be mistaken.
But I don't know if i meant that smile.

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