I'm not me today.

Today I'm not behaving like myself.
I didn't had self control, nothing.
I was so pissed.
So pissed with myself, with my teacher with everyone.
I'm in awe, how much I changed within only a few months.
How much I turn into such a horrible person.
I'm so disgusted with myself.
So ashamed.
I wasn't even being a good example of a Christian.
Tell me what's wrong with me?
Why is my faith so week.
Why is everything failing on me?

Today, I swore the most.
In the printing room especially.
I'm so disgusted with myself.
I don't think I can love myself anymore.